HeartShapedChocolates

2012-01-10T10:42:00.001+08:00

#Iwant2goawout! (last word's a act cute version of out LOL )

Ok bye gonna go brush my teeth & read the books I got for myself!!!!

2012-01-04T17:14:00.002+08:00

Colours & Promises/

I'm listening to Christina Perri's "A Thousand Years" and awwwww :')

Okay anyway I've promised myself to do a 2011 post! But as yall know, I'm horribly lazy hahahahaahahahaaaaaa -_- So, I've yet to really think of last year! It'll probably be like mid-June or sth when I finally thought this over hahahahaha. But I've been reading through all my notes/cards which I've received and some has really got me awwwwww :') or just :-) and since I'm going to start another phase of my life I'll post up the pix of some notes which were really meaningful & heartwarming & funny & to those people who wrote them, thankyou so much :') (OMG I CAN'T THINK W MUSIC I HOPE MY WORDS STILL MAKE SENSE HAHA BUT I REALLY CAN'T UHM DO 2 THINGS AT A TIME. I FORGOT THE WORD FOR THAT -_- )

Ok firstly, my nail is really ugly so excuse me for that.......... :( I tried french manicuring @ home & I totally have no patience to wait for the nails to dry so 5/10 nails are ugly and smudged hahaha. Oh & this will be:

(Okay I can't think of a title....................) (But being as lazy I'll name this blog post as :D............. )

:') [PART 1] Cos my cam keep running out of batt grrrrrr needa charge my batts hahaha so yup part 1 part1!

Okay here goes:

(Shit I sudd damn lazy)
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ blogger's taking such a long time :(
.................................. LOOPS BRUNO MARS' THE LAZY SONG X1000000000000
still loading....................................... ROAR @__@
OMG STILL LOADING _O_ ENRWJHJEROWIJROIWJEOIJRIERLSFKJLJDKDFJLJ

Okay bye guys -_- LOL sorry but I'll do this again when I'm free okokokokokok bye sorry for wasting your time to read this LOL bye!

2012-01-01T00:49:00.003+08:00

HI HSC YOU JUST TURNED 5 OMGOMGOMG same age as my bro not bad not bad gaga googoo *makes baby sound*

Ok, enuff of this weirdo stuff hahahahaha anw:

Happy 2012!!!!!!!!!!! :-)

I'm supposed to do a 2011 post as usual like every year & they're usually done way before the new year starts but apparently I've permanently became lazybum1993/ sofagal1993 hahahahaha damn sian & right now I can't think of anything yet!!!! Pinky promise I'll do this the next time I blog! Hopefully I recover from the lazy bug hahahahahahaaaaaaa. -_- Sianness overtaking me lol T_T

Ok somehow I'm not feeling very great tonight so I'm gonna log off soon & hopefully I'll get rid of all these feelings asap, whatever is it it's a brand new start and I heard it's bad luck if you're unhappy or whatsoever. OK NOW I SOUND MOPY & WHINEY.

2012................................. To health & happiness! Xx :-)

2011-12-30T12:49:00.004+08:00

Okay it was a scam just now!!!! Mommy's still on the phone! So a few pix for those who miss my face!!!!! THANKSTHANKS hahahahaha *___*

^ Dear beloved SEESA during prom!!!! So many pretty girls I'm being overshadowed!!!!! T_T Love yall babes!!!!

^ Us in HK!!!!!! Nice hair colours^__^ & 温馨 shot!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 Okay anw I dyed my hair right & check out my medium blonde hair FAILZ HAHAHAHA the label said medium blonde & ..... :-) The new medium blonde colour :-)

& Lastly MY NEW FOUNDED HERO <3 <3 <3 <3!!!!!!! Chionged thru 40eps of 宫锁心玉 in these 2 days & I'VE BEEN MOPING & CRYING whenever 八阿哥aka the guy on top teared :'( Such a good show hehehe recommends!!!!! Go check it out pls <3 Awwwww gonna rewind & rewind all the scenes later when I'm free!!!!!

Okay more photos another day!!!!!! Gonna chiong thru my moping floor & get the dishes out & fly out becos the weather's soooooo good!!!!!! :-) :-)

Hope you've a great day fellow blog readers!!!!!!

2011-12-30T12:31:00.003+08:00

HI HSC SORRY I'VE BEEN NEGLECTING YOU AGAIN I'm @lazybum1993 + @houseworkauntie1993!!!!!!! Hahahaha cos I've pinky promised my parents to do alllll housework after As so I can skive before that & pile all my washing plates days to my bro! :-) :-) :-) So now I've to mope floor + wash dishes + fold clothes + hang out clothes before I can proceed on my own stuffs!

Okay, so talking about recent life, I'M JOBLESS, but my money's forever finding various ways to say goodbye to me awwww, so yup! Still frantically finding suitable jobs. But meanwhile, been helping my momsy w her tuition centre! Meaningful yet my scheming mom's always finding ways to not pay me hahahahahahaha kidding mom still love you muackx :-* Yup & obv I've been rejected for the MOE internship & Tamp intern :-/ & I've rejected RWS! Going to check out a cupcakes shop later wonder whether I'll learn how to bake???? Excites!!!!!!!!

Secondly, it's been 2 weeks since I've been back from HK! My first trip without parents but with my dearest beloved SEESA <3 I'm totally lazy to describe but it was reallllllllllly fun :D :D :D & I'm so proud of us girls to get to anywhere with just a map & our brains!!!!!!! Hahahahahaha ok their brains I'm just busy watching TV when they discuss @ night hahahaha. Nevertheless love yall people lots & 友谊万岁！！！！！！！

Okay my mope is getting all dry but my mom's still talking on the phone!!! So abit more to go ~

Going out with Wentian, xiaowei & muni (?) later to teoheng & dinner in town!!!!!

Ok my mom just got out the room ciao!!!!!!

2011-11-13T16:22:00.002+08:00

Hey hsc!!!!!! Haven't blogged for the longest time in my whole life but guess what I'm in the middle of my A Levels!!!!! Hahahaha like wow A L-E-V-E-L-S it's finally here & I'm already acting like it's over hahahaha.

I wouldn't say GP, Maths have been a breeze or CONFIRM PLUS CHOP A MANZ but they've been great I'm currently peaking F YEAH *TROLL FACE* just have no idea how much I'm peaking by! Maybe one mark -__- LOL then it's 46+1=47 for GP cui :S *TOUCH WOOD*

But yeah life hasn't been all that smooth sailing since last Wed! Was crying as though my world fell apart the whole afternoon after maths p1 hahaha I did feel like my world fell apart k!!!! Just didn't feel like I've performed my best & it kinda sucked after you think of all the practises you've done haha. But decided to give myself a break and take a step back haha. Oh wellz. :-)

I'm feeling much more positive now GONNA OWN LIT TMR F YEAH (but haven't started revising yet fmlz hahaha) but yeahp!!!!!!! ALL THE WAY ANGELA!!!!!! :D

Bye hsc!!! Just wait till next tuesday k!!!!! You'll be filled up with lots of pix of me with chio hair hahahaahahahaha f yeah zai jian!!

2011-07-12T19:57:00.002+08:00

I promised myself 3 months ago, this time, everything would be fine, this time, I'll show the world what I've got, I'm not just capable of getting Us, or high Es, I can do more, I can, I can. &, I'm going to pronounce every letter grade clearly, with pride. But. Why. Not.

I'm so angry with myself I'm just controlling not to smash up my file pencil box whatever that is in my reach.

Why?

I keep telling myself to hold on, to continue on. Why can't I do it when so many others can? Why is everything not paying off, not even a teeny weeny bit? Why? Are you always looking at that A, on someone's script? And not on my own?

Why? Why.

Why?

2011-07-01T13:04:00.003+08:00

Hi HSC!!!! Hehe~

It's the mid week of cts! I've 3 more papers to go and I wouldn't say everything is going well.......................

Econs, elit, csc. I'll continue to try my best alright. :-)

After all.

-

I don't know, but I'll keep trying.

2011-05-06T12:50:00.002+08:00

It has been a while since I updated, and what I want to say is:

FUCK YOUR LIFE BLOODY HELL WHO GIVES YOU THE AUTHORITY TO BLOODY LECTURE ME YOU'RE A BLOODY HYPOCRITE X100000 GO AND DIE %^&(*&$$#@#

I sound like 5 rather than 18 LOL. WHATEVER.

Anw HOMA BBQ was really fun last night! :-) Good job guys!

2011-03-16T12:04:00.003+08:00

"When I first knew you, she was just born!"

"Yeah! She's P1 next year..."

".........."

AW BEST FRIEND SUSU (L)

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah."

"Do you want to eat anything? I cook a cheese sausage for you?"

Suddenly thought of this on Monday night while I was leaving for home after 11's BBQ. How long ago is that?

-

Parents are the strangest creatures on Earth. Sometimes you just felt like stamping out of the house and never seeing them again, but the other times, I feel like throwing myself into their arms as though I'm 5, not 18.

This used to be the convo when Mommy's in Singapore. (She went overseas last Sun!)

Mom: DO YOU WANT ANY FRUITS?~ MANGO, APPLE, GRAPES, ETC ETC?
Angela: Uhhhhhhhhhhhh apple with skin peeeled & cut & Mango too~
Dad: Why can't you let her do it herself??? She'll become crippled if she sits there all day long, day-dreaming behind her books. -____-
Angela & Mom: -IGNORES-

Last night:

Dad: Do you want any fruits?
Angela: Uh no thanks.
Dad: How about water????
Dad: TEA???? COFFEE?? MILO????
Angela: Uhm no thanks I just drank!
Dad: -PLACES A CUP OF TEA ON MY TABLE-
Angela: Aw!

(Few mins later)

Dad: DO YOU WANT ANY FRUITS?????
Angela: Nah!
Dad: YOU SURE??? APPLES, PEARS, BANANAS, KIWI FRUIT???
Angela: Nope!

(Decides 2 go to the kitchen & got an apple from the fridge)

Dad: -RUSHES TO KITCHEN-
Angela: I'll do it!
Dad: You know how to do it? (He means peeling the skin)
Angela: Er.....
Dad: -SNATCHES OVER-
Dad: Go back to your room & wait!

Angela: :-)

-

Been losing my motivations to do work since starting of the week, house's empty most of the time, feeling empty awwwwh~ :(

5 more days! Fighting Angela!

2011-03-05T10:12:00.004+08:00

Is it too late?

What has happened to me?

Sometimes I wished I could go back in time. Too many wrong decisions, too many indecision. But, no. Look in front.

2011-02-26T19:14:00.001+08:00

:-)

2011-02-19T16:35:00.004+08:00

I'm surprised I still get more than 10 hits a day haha, I'm practically treating this as a plateform to emo or vent my anger hehehehe, so for those people who still read HSC, here's a post (preferably quite happy) for yall! ^____^

Yingying: I believe in the Murphy's Law! Wtf my hair damn cui now I better don't meet *** otherwise I'll disappear from school for a week and cry under the bed.
Angela: I DON'T BELIEVE IN MURPHY'S LAW.
Angela: I BELIEVE IN PERFECT HAIR LAW. IF YOUR HAIR'S PERFECT IN THE MORNING, YOU'LL HAVE A DAMN PERFECT DAY.
Yingying: YEAH!!! PERFECT HAIR LAW!!! -GIVES FUCK YEAH FACE-

HAHAHAHA. I find this convo damn epix.

Was eating out with my parents just now @ Absolute Thai at Tampines after having Lit remedial in school. Don't ask me how was it, the only flavour I could make out was the spicy part, the rest of the time I was busy panting and sticking out my tongue like a dog wtf hahahaha.

Dad: Eat this giant prawn!!!!
Me: (With mouth full) NOMS NOMS YEAH.
Mom: Why you so kan chiong! She still eating mah give it to her later!!!
Mom: (Turns to me) But meanwhile eat this pork rib!! Damn nice!!!!
Me: -grunts-

Hahahahahahahaha epix. I lazy to blog already! Okay bye I shall go highlight my Econs notes now. (I BOUGHT THIS NEW HIGHLIGHTER INK DAMN CHIO!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D )

NEXT WED NEXT WED! -EXCITED-

2011-02-16T18:38:00.003+08:00

"It's so unhealthy. That obsession of yours. Is that the way you define love? Ask yourself honestly. Give yourself a break, give him a break. Let him go."

2011-02-04T15:35:00.006+08:00

I hate both of you for being so selfish. So yall wanted to talk it through, communicate, then fucking do it when yall are sane.

I don't know why everytime I come online, I become incredibly bad tempered or teary. Hence I come here, trying to write something to release that feeling. But what is there, is an incoherent mess. I can't write it out. I can't relieve myself. Can you sense that feeling of unhelpness? I want to smash that fucking 45 inches TV with everybody's smiles looking 100 times wider than usual, swallowing me whole. I want them to cry, not to laugh.

All these unexplained feeling. I want to escape from all these. 9 more months. I can do this. I can.

I'm getting outta here.

2011-01-31T19:03:00.002+08:00

When I saw it, my heart did a somersault, but what can I do? Except to scroll over the top right of the page and click the little red cross. My refugee, the little red cross.

How I wished in life, there was a little red cross. Click it and everything disappears from your sight. Click it, and you get that one split second of comfort.

But in life there is none.

I show a smiley face. And I'm happy again.

2011-01-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

I feel like screaming a million fucks but no I won't. I'll hold my head high and carry on fighting. At the end of the day, I will. I will make you regret.

(Hold my head high sounds weird. Fuuuuuuuuuu brain not working bye.)

2011-01-16T16:59:00.003+08:00

I used to be envious of you. But now. I see and I know. Now. I cringe at everything you do.

2011-01-15T11:27:00.002+08:00

It's the first week of school and I've lost my waterbottle, nearly my skirt (I found it the next day), late for 2 out of 3 orientation days, body feels like I've undergone 5 trainings, scratches all over. But.

ORIENTATION WAS I TO THE M TO THE B TO THE A. IMBA IMBA IMBA A~~~ HEHEHEHE. I LOVE HOMA! :-) HOMA OWNZ HANDS-DOWN LAH PURRRLEASE HAHA.

Thankyou SCs for putting in so much efforts! I really enjoyed it very muchchchzx. :-) I bet everyone else did tooooo hahaha.

Okay, I really need advice. Sigh, I'll read my Econs notes now. Saying hi to the hectic life ever after until As.

Behind your back

2011-01-08T10:49:00.003+08:00

夜深人静的时候你会想起谁？

I'm still lapsing into one of my moments, where everything just plummets down, a bottomless pit. But I guess. Everything's okay. :')

I'm actually loooking forward to the new school term I need my momentum backkkk! The oh-my-god-got-pop-quiz-I-never-study or the oh-my-god-I-failed-again or the oh-my-god-last-one-min-to-end-of-lit-I-wanna-rush-out-of-class-now. Hahaha but I'm gonna say goodbye to the oh-my-god-got-pop-quiz-I-never-study or the oh-my-god-I-failed-again! I'll be super nerdy like Sam! (JOKING JOKING) I mean hardworking! Hahaha oh-my-momo-it's hard-typing-like-this.

I'm finally done with my endless CSC essays!! I'm done with GP compres too but they are really hard gosh. AQ was the killlllller. So now I've the 8 essays left (BUT IT'S CONSIDERED HOMEWORK FINISH LAAAAAH) hahaha.

Saw the timetable just now!! Super happy hehehehe C: My days are all ending @ 1 plus, 2 except for 1 or 2 days. Lit's beeen moved up up up yayz. Means I can go home right after and mug!! *EXCITED* ROFLMAO.

&, I've got a feeling that 2011 will be reaaaaaal good. :^)

Kayz, dinner with Clique later!

Fighting everyboddddddddy! :*)

2011-01-03T10:59:00.004+08:00

Hiiiiiiii guys! Happy belated 2011! ;-)

Immma really lazy to complete my 2010 post ugh haha but I really wanna finish it but I'm too lazy. LAZY LAZY LAZY. But to round it up, I think 2010 was really fun with lots of free period talking cock and eating my ass off. (Which are there for you to study I know.) Getting to know lots of people that I wouldn't, if I haven't landed myself in 5C11. Actually 2010 kind of made me realise what I really want to do with my life, it's like I've moved onto another stage, thinking more of what I want to do with my life and what is really suitable for me. Some things that never would have belonged to me, would never. Self-deceiving, that is what's been going on in my life I guess, about grades, about the guy I like, about myself, self-deceiving and not been able to let go, and not being awake enough to improve myself to be the person that I want myself to be.

(I don't know whether the last few sentences actually makes sense, but I'm just typing about feelings randomly.)

Oh well, so 2010's over! So is many of my silly procrastinations and self-deceiving tactics.

Hiiiiiiiiii 2011, I'll make you the best year ever! :-)

Okaaaaaay so I wanted to post some pics to end up this post and again, the L word. LAZYBUMASS.

I'll be going on a MIA according to my resolutions (I'M STICKING TO IT!!!! *PROUD*) so nehneh, bye blogging bye Facebook! I'm going to study/work real hard this year on whatever I'm doing and do a really good job. So I guess I won't have much time blogging/talking cock haha unless I wannna rant/scold people/emo moppy/ whatever hahaha so tada.

Bye people!! Do check back once in a whileeeeee hehe don't let my stats die hahahaha have a really goooood year too!

& Dinnering with SEESA later! Mega loves!!!!

2010-12-29T19:29:00.004+08:00

Dooodlewoodleyoodles! It's ah, 1, 2, 3 more days to 2011! No. I mean 2. Me Maths are goodz. :-) Okay anyway here comes the 2010 post @ the end of every year! Haha but this year I'm a teenyweenybity lazyeezy so I'll do it another wayay hehe.

Okay so here goes.

TWENTYTEN (2010)

5 most memorable moments in 2010:

1. (Okay now I'm typing this I can't think of anything. -_- ) Uh. (Now I thought of it but have no idea how to phrase it properly.) OKAY. Probably my first match with TPJC I guess, the match which I dunked in 3 balls!! OKAY FINE I DON'T DUNK. ROFLMAO. But still, it was such an achievement for me, being entirely new or semi entirely new to the whole game. (I played basketball when I was in Pri school) I was so jittery before the game! There were lots of people looking and the court seeemed like never ending to me haha, and I was actually pretty worried that I'll pull down the team and be a burden since I'm a veggiebird (菜鸟）and stuff. But ohwell I'm glad I contributed something to the team! When the coach complimented me at the end I thought I could fly or something. The feeling was amazing. I NOT TRYING TO HAOLIAN LAAAH. Thanks Lady Luck! I knew you would stick to me like gluuuue. :-) (This was my status the night before the game haha) But of course, thanks team!

2. I'm going to admit now: It's when I received the text after I gave away my jellies. I was, truely very happy. Okay the end. If there's a 2(b), it would be the moment when he gave me a bottle of water for my sorethroat. Okay end.

3. Hm. On the day we received our report books, definitely hahaha. The whatever score errr you know the one that they converted from your grade to marks, like maybe A to like 10 points or something forgoooot. Okay anyway so Ms Huda was telling me that I'd had an improvement from around 15 points from CTs (I know, it's omg. If you don't know, 15's a U U U S E LOL) to around 35 I guess ( E E E D U ) 35+ is still a very low average I know, but when it came out of Ms Huda's mouth, it's like a 65 in disguise!! What I mean is that she sounded so encouraging that it just makes me feel kinda good about myself getting 35 hahaha.And I started haolianing to everybody that I improved by 20+points hahaha >:) *SHAMELESS* Ms Huda's definitely one of the best teacher I've met in DHS. (Not forgetting Noel!) Caring, understanding, and kind of funny in the tell-joke-but-nobody-gets-it-way hahahahahaha. Thankyou Ms Huda for all you've done for 5C11, I'm sure everybody'll miss you like hell next year. :'(

4. All my moments with my new found silly Clique!! Aw I soooooo sweeeet! :-) All of you so stupid I wanna laugh my ass off everyday hahahahah. JOKING JOKING~ Clique's one of the sweetest little bunch of people I've met haha. Our characters are all so differing! I mean I've never ever ever thought I'll be friends with Subin (Cos of all the silly little fighting over Angeline when I was in 3F hahahaha. I admit, most of the time I was the one starting it becos I'm a petty overly possessive nice gurrrrl. :-) hahahaha.) Or Yingying even. (We didn't really start off nicely always bitching behind each other's backs hahaha) Or Sam! (UTTER SHOCK) Or Xiaowei! (SHO FAT! HAHAHAHA JOKING JOKING) I guess it's fate then, pulling us together aw. :') Fate is such an amazing thing haha. I've never failed to receive comforts in all sorts of forms when I felt really low, or never failed to laugh like crazy woman over the things we do. :-) And after the accident, I felt really heartened by all the texts and the visits (SO YALL CAN LAUGH AT ME WHEN I'M AT MY MOST UNGLAMEST RIGHT ADMIT IT *DEFENSIVE*) and sunflowers! Thanks guys! Thanks Muni, Yanci, Xiaowei, Yingying, Subin, Wentian, Sam!

5. The accident @ Perth. Yall might not wanna look at me moping all over about it again hahaha it's all below below below!

OHMYGOD. MY SHOW STARTED ALREADY. BYE.

So anticlimax hahaha I'll do it up another day! Still got a few more to go hahaha bye!

& Don't worry about me in the previous post, I'm just going through one of those moppy-wanna die-emo-wanna cry-wanna cry somemore period! Hahahaha. But thanx for asking about it though! Appreciated it!

2010-12-28T17:17:00.005+08:00

I wish that smile could be plastered onto my face forever.

Forever doesn't exist.

Please stop the cycle. Guilt and hurt. Please don't hurt myself anymore.

2010-12-27T11:46:00.004+08:00

I've lost all my faith in you.

All.

I just don't believe in it anymore. No no.

Giving. Giving your all, will it make you happier?

Romantizing on my part, all along.

2010-12-24T15:32:00.012+08:00

Merrrrrrrry Christxmas Eve!! ^_^

I hope yall have really great plans to celebrate Christmas unlike me sobs. :( Mommy's planning to go for a steamboat tonight and buy an iPhone for me hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe. Sounds like a great plan BUT NOT CHRISTMASSSSSY. :( And I was wondering whether I should get an iPhone haha. I prefer the wider typing screen like Blackberry. But idk!! ^_^

So I was @ Orchard yesterday night doing CIP Kettling services. Me and Xiaowei got soooo enthu we even bought Christmas hats hehe. Had dinner with Sam, Wentian, Nicole and Yanci @ Taka after waiting for 45mins for a table. But the food was not badddd. Uh, what else. I'm so tired of bloggggging now. Z_Z

So here are the piszx:

Reached home @ 11 and Daddy said I look very cute with the Christmas hat!! Smug ttm hehehe. Anyway the Christmas lights @ Orchard was awwwwesome. Just looking at the lights make me so hyped up for the festival. (Y)

Merrry Christmas too! Have fun!

Fingers crossed.

2010-12-23T14:22:00.004+08:00

Lazing around, doing nothing.

Top 10 favourite songs I'm listening to now:
1. The show goes on- Lupe Fiasco
2. Coming home- Dirty Money
3. Hold my hand- MJ Ft. Akon
4. Better than her- Matisse ft Akon
5. Need you-Travie Mccoy
6. Shine the light on her- Mcfly Ft. Taio Cruz
7. Love electric- Quick Quick Danger
8. Playing God- Paramore
9. Shaking in my head- Detail Ft. Flor Rida
10. Falling stars- David Archuleta

2010-12-22T10:53:00.011+08:00

Just finished watching Ep6 of It Started With A Kiss. Kim Hyun Joooooong!! ^_^ Didn't think much of the girl at the 1st/2nd Ep but she looked more and more pretty hahaha and her fishbraids so nice! Jealous ttm. Eyes R abit tired so decided to blog and do some Elit later. (What's becoming of me siah.) ROFL.

Caught Let Me In on Monday with Kiatshing and Yanci on Monday. It's supppper nice!! Hahahaha the movie's one of the best I've watched in my life. Seriously, full of momentum throughout. I'm super unwillingly to admit this but it's also the most NC16 movie I've watched hahahaha there were like blood everywhere and alot of vampire scenes sucking blooood. This was the convo between me and Yanci at Monday night:

Angela: (texts) YANCIIIII I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP. The scene of the lady sucking her own blood keep flashing across my mind. :(
Yanci: Loll! Hahahahaha.
Angela: Waulauz you free sms can text over one hahahaha izzzzit?! Omg I'm so traumatised. D:
Yanci: Hahahaha go to sleep. (YANCI'S SMS SO LAME)
Angela: Abby (the only vampire in the show) made Edward Cullen look like a wimp. OMG I CANNOT SLEEP. My emotional standard not up to NC16. >:(
Yanci: Hahahahaha. Zomg don't worry you're safe at home!
Angela: Shut up. I'm going to act all strong and blog that the movie's a piece of cake. Lame vampire sucking and rated NC 16. WHO AM I KIDDING X_X
Yanci: Hah you still insisting on watching it in the first place. KARMA.
Angela: WHO SAID I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP?! NIGHT. GOSH MY NECK KEEP HAVING THIS TINGLING FEEEEEELING!!!!!!!!!!!

But the movie's really nice!! I strongly recommendddddddddd go go go watch it!

Anyway I was digging through my photo albums yesterday and I found a CD! So I decided to see what's inside and got a laugh of my life hehehehe. It's my lousy photoshoooot in China like 5 years ago!!! Hahahahaha omg I keep cringing at whatever I'm wearing. IT'S LIKE 5 YEARS AGO OKAY. So I decided to share some of the better ones! :-)

Idk why got so many repeated photos haiyo don't care hahahaha. Okay anyway final photo!! Take a deeeeeeep breathe people and tell yourself this is 5 years ago. 5 YEARS AGO.

Okay ready?! Here goes:

HAHAHAHAHA TOTALLY SPOIL MY IMAGE SIAH. THIS IS SUPPOSEDLY THE WIND SWEEP HAIR LOOK I GUESS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA TTM. The rest 50 plus in studio shots are more or less the same. *CRINGES* HAHAHAHAHHAHA IF I'M GOOD MOOD MAYBE I'LL SHARE THE REST HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAA.

Okay. The end. Stop laughing. Bye!

What more can I expect?

2010-12-19T23:21:00.009+08:00

I was thinking of this whole year, and to be frank, I didn't really achieve much. Everything just went about in a blur, coming, came, gone. Except for the fwens I have met hehehe who added some colours, but gosh, it's just another wasted year all over again.

So I've decided to work on my resolutions 2011, and hopefully I'll stick to them!! *EXCITED* But do do do scroll down to my previous post and laugh at my brother okay, if you get bored of my resolutions. ROFLMAO. I'm still very entertained over the Germinators LMAO.

Okay so here goes:

TOP 34 RESOLUTIONS FOR 2011.

(Not in terms of merit) -_-

1. Pay full attention in lectures and tutorials.

2. Ask when in doubt, find out why am I wrong etc.

3. Arrange consultations regularly. No last min purrrrlease!

(Yeah so true can!! I always go irritate Ms Huda like 2 days before GP CT/Promos haha then get all paranoid and worried after finding out I still have so much to work on.)

4. Always prepare myself for tutorials and lectures by reading notes or doing some tutorials beforehand.

(MR LOH ARE YOU LOOKING AT THIS?!?!?!?! DON'T WORRY I'LL DO ALL MY MATHS TUTORIALS NEXT YEAR!!!)

5. Make full use of free periods.

(I've been spending my free periods of 2010 either stuffing myself with foood or talking lots of cock and disturbing other people LOL.)

6. Plan a schedule everyday and follow it.

(True true! Otherwise I'll be some lost lamb wondering what to do and wasting time. Cos I'm very indecisive lol so I'll keep changing my mind about what to do and waste lotsa time!)

7. Spend lesser on Facebook/Blogger/MSN/Online TV/TV/Gossiping like mad about other people's photos/status/Create lots of havoc on Facebook/~. Spend more time on checking info for CSC. Check DHSMail regularly!!

(I used to have like 3/4 of my mail not opened or don't bother to check my mails for weeks and miss out on hell alot of things.)

8. Save money!! But reward myself on a regular basis if I've done well in pop quizzes/tests.

(THIS GONNA BE HARD. RESTRAIN!!!!)

9. Lose weight. Stop eating snacks/fried/oily stuffs once every 10mins. Drink a bottle of water everyday at least. Cut down on the number of soft drinks.

(HOHOHO LIN CHI LING FIGURE HERE I COME~)

10. Stop complaining/wallowing in self-pity.

(Yeah, life isn't for you to complain or emo every single day.)

11. Brush my teeth twice a day.

(I feel like I'm 10 years old when I typed this. YEAH LARH YEAH LARH I LAZYBUM ONLY BRUSH EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE UP. IT'S GONNA BE HISTORY NOW OKAYZ.)

12. Have confidence. Never let other people get me down.

(No no no. Neverrrrrrah~)

13. Always tell myself I can do it.

14. Face life and everything I do (whether I like it or not) with passion and excitement.

15. Try my best.

16. Let some people go. They are not worth it.

17. Pay more attention to people who deserve it.

18. Read Chinese/English newspapers everyday to widen my horizons.

19. Wake up 20mins earlier for school.

(MR KOH ARE YOU LOOKING AT THIS?!?!?!?!?! TARDY QUEEN RUNNER-UP (IN CASE YOU'RE INTERESTED, YINGYING'S THE TARTY QUEEN LOL. SHE'S LATE FOR 22 TIMES AND I WAS LATE FOR 17 TIMES BEFORE TERM 3 THIS YEAR LOL. SO I RUNNER UP :( LOL

OKAY ANYWAY I'VE RESOLVED TO COME SCHOOL EARLY!!!! PROUD OF ME NOT!!!! HEHEHEHEHE.)

20. Wake up earlier during weekends.

(In case you don't know, I get headaches when I sleep for too long and I'll feel groggy the whole day. )

21. Go for evening jogs.

(That is, if my leg gets better.) T_T

22. Take care of my possessions.

(For instance, stop throwing my phone around. NO NO THERESA IT'S JUST AN EXAMPLE, IF YOU'RE LOOKING AT THIS. LOL.)

23. Speak properly. Stop trying to mix all the languges I know in one sentence when speaking. LOL.

(I realised it's really bad during OP when they ask you a question. My answers keep popping up in my head in a mix of English and Chinese LOL and I'll have to translate them in my brain. -_- But still guys, my hand signs will be there *WINK*)

24. Come home ASAP after school.

(Stop going to Bugis like 3/4 times a week after school ROFLMAO.)

25. Study hard, play hard!!

26. Grab every opportunity upon my way.

27. Never do/ say anything which I'll regret later on.

28. Stick with my decisions.

30. Never plug in earpiece just becos I'm bored when I'm studying.

(I suck big time at double-tasking. Double-tasking sounds weird. I can't rememeber the word gosh. Anyway yeah except for Maths! Idk why so weird. I always plug in earpiece this year just becos I'm bored from studying and I can't even concentrate at home! I would be like re-reading a word over and over again. LOL.)

31. Never give up.

32. Face 2011 with a smile.

33. Always be happy regardless.

34. Never lose my charms *WIDE SMILE*

(I don't mean my looks or anything lah in case you wanna open your mouth and say something mean LOL. I mean my characteristics, strengths, which everybody has that are unique to them! We should never never lose our appeal. :) )

Okay that's allllll. I'll think of somemore before I say hi to 2011 and put in my best!! After all it's only 20more days to the history of 2010. And I really hope 2011 will be great. Hahahaha.

AND AND SCROLL DOWN TO PREVIOUS POST AND LAUGH AT MY BRO'S STUPIDITY PURLEASE. OTHER TIMES IF YOU LAUGH AT HIM I'LL PUNCH YOUR NOSE OUT.)

Good night people!

2010-12-19T19:11:00.003+08:00

IMMMMA SO GONNA BLOG ABOUT THIS:

Bro: Eh oiiiiii you know the show last Friday? The Germinators??? When's the next show ah?
Angela: Hm. The Germinators? (Thinks of any Scientific shows I watched involving germination of seeds or something. WHICH IS NONE LAH. I DON'T WATCH SCIENTIFIC SHOWS.)
Bro: Aiyah you know the one that we watched on Channel 5 last Friday?!?! 9pm!! The Germinators!!!!
Angela: The Germinators????????
Bro: YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ONE LAH. JUST WATCH ALSO DON'T KNOW. *shouts*
Angela: WHAT GERMINATORS?!?!?! ABOUT BEES OR WHAT? GERMINATE SEEDS?!?! LIKE PLANTS?!?! WHEN DID WE EVER WATCH IT!!! *agiated*
Bro: What are you talking about. What bees? o_o
Bro: I'm talking about the you know! The macho guys Germinators!! The American gameshow!!
Angela: ...

Angela: DO YOU MEAN THE AMERICAN GLADIATORS?! GOSH. WHAT GERMINATORS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA GERMINATORS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING AT HIS STUPIDITY HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2010-12-18T23:12:00.009+08:00

Coming home

These are the photos we took today! Hahahaha Yanci and Kiat look not bad leh not bad not bad hmmmmm. (YANCI I NEVER SAY ANYTHING SUGGESTIVE!!! *INNOCENT*) ROFL. Anyway haha so Kiatshing was introducing me as his da jie and Yanci as his xiao mei but obviously nobody believed the xiaomei part about Yanci hahahahaha cos they were thinking, "Gosh. Why good genes end up in da jie and Kiatshing. The xiaomei must be fake." (HAHAHA YANCI I JOKING I JOKING) Gosh I can see her bursting a blood vessel now. But none of the Dunmanians believed me and Kiat though. He toooo famous laaaaaaah. And someone else too... (*BEAUTY QUEEN WAVE*) ROFLMAO. I NO HIS GOOD GENES LAAAAH. O_O (That's used here to signify his eyezzz)

I love these effects!!! The cinemaish effect I look like Lin Chi Ling can!!! Okay okay I joking don't come and spam me okkkkk~~ Anyway I wanna put this on my dp but Yanci said she'll severe all ties with me if I do. (so serious) Hahaha.

Night guys!!

2010-12-18T19:15:00.003+08:00

Helloooo guys! Watcha doin' nowadays? Hehehe. I was having a slight fever 2 days ago on and off, must be the weather! Too muchzx rain. Take care too, to whoever who's reading this haha. Aw, so caring. *blush*

Anway today was at Seeting's church 4 Christmas Service! I looove the environment, it felt like a one big family seriously. I was so overwhelmed by the friendliness and the smiles on everybody's faces hahaha. Meeting new people, receiving handshakes, hugs... Aw. Thanks guys for welcoming us! Really appreciated yall! :-)

Going to Church again after 5/6 years felt almost refreshing. I really want to be in that big family, to be one of the believers. I hardly tell people this, but during my accident in Perth, when I really needed someone to hold onto, amazingly, I turned to God. Praying for my family or just randomly ranting. I guess He was always there, for me, whether I know it or not. I know I'm going to take a step of Faith, but maybe just not now. I'm still unable to let go what happened 5/6 years later. But soon, I hope. :-)

It feels awesome have Faith when the world is turning dreary.

But today was great. Thanks for everything. :)

2010-12-13T17:56:00.007+08:00

My bro's backkkkkkk!! Missed him like &@&*@#*!% hoho~

Was at the airport with Momsy close to midnight waiting for him. Gosh, it's weird how siblings (Actually he's not really my brother, he's my cousin. Aye long story.) share this love-hate relationship haha. Sometimes I just hate him so much and feel like punching his intestines out everytime I see him (Gosh, I make myself sound so disgusting. Punch his intestines out -_- ) but I misssssed him like crazy this 4/5 weeks when he went back!! (I hope he doesn't visit my blog secretly) LOL.

There's this funny convo (not convo exactly) with Momsy last night while standing in front of the glass panel waiting for Bro to appear:

Mom: Where's your bro? Why he soooo slow!
Angela: Uhm, I don't know. Probably too fat to walk.
Random woman: *taps glass madly* OMG LOOK HE'S THERE!!! LOOK LOOK LOOOOOK!!!
Mom: So noisy haiyo.
Angela: Yar lor.
Mom: *POUNDS FIST ON GLASS MADLY* OMG LOOK YOUR BROTHER!!!! YOUR BROTHER IS THERE!!!!! YOUR BROTHER'S BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Angela: O______O Mom, please, calm.
Mom: YOUR BROTHER YOUR BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ROFL.

Bro bought lots of fooood back!! Mad loves hehehe. I love the unpacking process haha so many surprises!! Okay let me share this quite disgusting surprise: My bro bought dried uh, crickets!!! I LOVE DRIED CRICKETS!!!! ;) Okay, end, I can see all the disgusting faces now. I'm still normal okay don't look at me when school reopens and go ew, dried crickets. *WIDE SMILE*

Anyway had lunch and went shopppping for a phone for my bro and mom just now! He has a smartphone now no fair~ Flaunt lah flaunt laaaaaaaah irritating idiot hahaha. So we were circling around TM/Century Square/T1 and I realised, my bro's such a disgrace. Don't get me wrong!! I'm still very proud of my family but just look at what he said when we were shopping.

At Nubox shop looking at iTouch:
Angela: Eh maybe you know, you can get an iTouch and a normal phone! *picks up iTouch*
Bro: OH SO THIS IS AN ITOUCH?!?!?! I FIRST TIME SEE LEH!
Angela: UHM. *looks around furtively to see whether anybody heard him.*
Bro: *even louder* SO THIS IS AN ITOUCH?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Mom: Can we leave him here?! Apparently he's living under a rock.

Later, walked past shop selling iTouch/iPhone covers:
Bro: *points to iTouch cover* OH LOOK ITOUCH!!!! WHY SO CHEAP?!?!?! SELLING AT 20 PLUS LEH.
Angela: UHM.
Mom: THAT'S AN IPHONE COVER. EVEN I KNOW CAN.

-_-

Hahaha I'm so exxxxxcited later got Breakout at 9pm!!!! ROFL. Hahahaha k I shall go watch TV now bye people enjoy your holidays!!

Welcome back bro!!! ~~

(Kay, apparently I chose this photo cos I looked quite nice. :D Okayokayokay. I geddit, scroll down.)

Missed you!! Hahaha :D

2010-12-11T10:25:00.007+08:00

Yoohoo~~

In case you're wondering why I haven't been online recently (like 2 days only), I've been busy~~ studying!! :-)

Hahaha yeah gonnnna try my best next year and unleash my potential hehehe!! Bye Es, Ss, and Us!! Helloooooooo As, Bs, and Cs!! Hahahahaha I see them waving at me already! *mad witch laughter*

-_-

I've nothing to blog about! But I'm here anyway so shall just share some of my recent thoughts hahaha. I've been considering of a career in Mediacorp these days after watching all the advertisements. LOL. (Ignore previous previous blog post about me considering journalism purlease hahahaha. WHAT CANNOT IZZZZIT. *DEFENSIVE*) In fact I'm thinking of being a script writer!! So cooooolzx, if I can't act then at least I can manipulate the famous artistes smirks.

Imagine: "Yang Tian! My script says you do this! Not this... You understand or not?!" HAHAHAHA. Me calling Dai Yang Tian Yang Tian!!! *HEART-SHAPED EYES* Hahaha actually whether I'm not even sure whether script writers interact with artistes at all, and I've no idea what other things they do except writing scripts hahaha and of course, I'm not sure of my capabilities to write an entire script! (Being extremely humble hehehe) But I'm definitely interested and eager to learn!! (I sound like I'm talking to the boss of Mediacorp or something -_- ) Lit will definitely help right, I don't know hahaha.

Calling Dai Yang Tian Yang Tian. *faints* Hahahahaha. Speaking of Dai Yang Tian (FAINTS), I'm kinda addicted to Breakout, the 9pm show hahaha. I don't really like to watch the parts with Elvin Ng and Zhou Ying but I loveeee watching the part involving Dai Yang Tian/ Jeanette Aw doing something evil hahahaha. Their clothes so nice!! Esp when Dai Yang Tian appeared in the pink blazer jacket (Is it what it's called?) hahahaha x_x

Kay, I shall go watch Gong again, sudden liking LOL. Bye!

Btw, I love this song: Better Than Her by Matisse ft Akon. Go have a listen! :-}

&, I've been trying to master Because I'm stupid by SS501 on the piano yesterday. Not bad okay!! Hahaha I feeel so proud of myself~ Gonna try playing Bruno Mars' Love the Way You Are next. So exxxcited hahaha ^^

If this is what you got, what you got is gold-

And Xiaowei, welcome back home! Miss you so much muachzx. Go out next weeeeeek if you see this! (Still go out next week if you didn't see this LOL)

Missing all these people already, all you little frwens come back soon!!

2010-12-07T23:33:00.003+08:00

A Pocketful Of Sunshine,

Love these 2 pixxx out of the rest screwed ones hahaha my cam lighting at night sucksz. :(

I'm gonna get a DSLR after As next year and look super glam in all the photozz hahahaha.

Had a great day with Debby bestiez! Gossiping like madz LOL. *shameless*

Easy A's mad funnny hahaha. "You little slut shit bitch tramp face"

K I've suddenly ran out of things to blog out. -_- Like sudden lost of words to say hahaha.

Er, uh, I shall go watch BOF nowwww hehehe bye!

Kuped this from Yingying's tumblr:

“When infatuated we experience a surge of dopamine that rushes through the brain causing us to feel good. Norepinephrine flows through the brain stimulating production of adrenaline (pounding heart). Phenylethalimine (found in chocolate) creates a feeling of bliss. Irrational romantic sentiments may be caused by oxytocin, a primary sexual arousal hormone that signals orgasm and feelings of emotional attachment.

Together these chemicals sometimes override the brain activity that governs logic.”

Oh yeah no wonder I always feel so good about myself yeah man~~
*ignores last sentence*

2010-12-07T10:05:00.002+08:00

Hi guys!! I was trying to do Elit last night again hahahaha but couldn't even continue after the 2nd page of Chapter 2. LOL so much for my inspirational post ytd about Lit hahahahaha T_T But I still love Lit okay! Hehehehehe.

Watching movie with Debby bestiez frwenszx later to watch Easy A! Hahahaha chick-flickz worhzxxxx bimboxxxxz's favvvvaaaritezx!

Hahaha first time going out to breathe some fresh airrrrrr and today's weather looks nubbbad. Nooooo rain please don't rainnnnnnnn. :(

K, shall do some work now before I hit town haha. Me are goodxxx gurrrrlszxxx wooorhx. :*)

I know, this post totally contradicts the previous post about me loving language. -_- Whateverz, I'm in a rare good mood today after coping at home for so long haha.

Bye peeeeeps have fun for holidays too!

P.S. SAM AND YANCI WHEN ARE WE WATCHING OUR CONFESSIONS? CONFESS NOW. (HAHAHAHAHA GEDDIT IT CONFESS NOW HAHAHAH) K. -_- Bye.

2010-12-06T13:48:00.008+08:00

*NERD ALERT NERD ALERT*

Hi guyzzzz this is gonna be a nerdz weird confessionz hohohoho that I've discovered last night:

I loveeeeeeeee Elit! *fawny eyes*

I've always hated and regretted chosing bloody Lit. I never saw myself as a very arty or English student ever since I started Sec1. I don't particularly enjoy Science, but I've never enjoyed writing Language Arts essay or any other subjects requiring writing essays. But I found myself falling in love with Chemistry at the end of Sec4. I thought I'll choose Chem as one of my Year5 subjects, but Mommy made me choose English Literature 'cos she was under the impression that I was very apt with writing essays haha. (Once I topped in a technology essay and I BHB tapped it on the wall of my studyroom hahaha cannot izzzzit?!) Hahaha so that's how I unwillingly gave up Chem and chose English Literature. Actually looking back this year, I've never bothered to look through my texts, not once really. My revision for Promos/Common Tests include a last minute flip of the pages and reading Sparknotes. I go in the examination venue the next day with the perception that preparation can never help me. I just need lots of luck and spamming of whatever I read the day before.

Until last night, I picked up my copy of Fistful Of Colours and really sat down to go through the first chapter. Wow, I couldn't believe my eyes as I jotted down questions and questions about the themes, answering them slowly by myself and writing down everything on my mind in my notebook. I found myself thinking about identity, about language and how history shapes one's identity, hybridity, how Art plays its role, sex and love and all these things that I once couldn't even bother to think about.

I spent an hour half on the first Chapter (quite long though) but it was a really meaningful one hour and half. It made me fall in love with the way language is beautifully used through the book.

I'm so glad I made the decision of taking English Literature. :^) I realised I really love writing, not essays though. Just writing in general, like blogging. It sorts out my thoughts and emotions. Nowadays, I'm even thinking of journalism as a career hmmm yeah the Mediacorp advertisement looks kinda coooool. "Do you need a story? Let me tell you the inside story." Hahahahaha.

*NERD ALERT OFFFFF*
By the way, I, I, I...
DIDN'T MANAGE TO CATCH KIM HYUN JOOONG LAST WEEK SOOOOOOOOOOOOBS. ME AND DEB GOT THE DATE WRONGLY SIGH MAXZXZX.

WHY WHY WHY KIM HYUN JOOOOOONG KIM HYUN JOOOOOOOOOOOONG *digs own grave*

2010-12-02T11:22:00.003+08:00

Everything irks me.

&, makes me wanna cry.

2010-11-30T13:00:00.002+08:00

I had my stitches removed last night! Nearly took my last breathe while the Doc was busy cutting the healing skin (I had the stitches removed abit too late, there were new skin blocking the threads), pulling stuck threads, cutting, prying open your mouth and pulling somemore. (Skin's more tender in your mouth! And more killer.)

Of course, not forgetting blood. :-)

(Way too gorrrrrrrrrrrry)

Okay there is a 'railway' pinkish raw scar on my chin, around 2cm probably. Better than what I expected haha.

Going out 2moroooo to stalk Kim Hyun Joooooong in the Airport!!!! <3
*FAINTS*

2010-11-29T11:17:00.003+08:00

I've been searching this on Google like mad.

"Do stitches leave scars on face"
"Stiches and scars"
"Stitches"

I just read this:

WHEN DO I GET STITCHES REMOVED:
1. Face: These should be removed in 3 to 5 days. Why so soon? Because by 5 days, the stitch thread start reacting with the skin and this can leave a mark for each stitch. Do not wait for more than 5 days.

STITCH THREADS START REACTING WITH SKIN????? A MARK FOR EACH STITCH?????

Some answers even said having a 'railway' scar.

A RAILWAY SCAR???????? ON MY FACE???????

I'm going to see a Doc tonight. BUT WHAT IF IT'S TOO LATE????? IT'S ALREADY 12 DAYS PASS STITCHING.

Heavy paranoia now.

2010-11-28T12:20:00.003+08:00

Instead of just sitting around,
and looking down on tomorrow.
You gotta let your feet off the ground,
the time is now, just let it go.

Don't wanna have to force you to smile.
I'm here to help you notice the rainbow.
Cause I know,
What's in you is out there.

(Greyson Chance- Waiting behind the lines)

Sometimes when I wake up, I felt like I'm lying in a tomb, suffocated by the silence hanging in the air.

I'm fine now I suppose. My face injuries are not very serious now except for hard bumps of blood clots. The rest of my family are doing pretty well too, mom's face's much much much better now. :-)

Thank You.

Everything will be better soon. And, everything will be alright. It has to be.

Will do some serious updating on Monday haha. Gotta do some Maths now~

& Congrats bro! You lost to me neh neh but I'm still proud of you for getting 252!! Hehehe fingers crossed you'll be going school together with me next year! (There's someone to split taxi fares with everyday!!!! *excited*)

PLUS, KIM HYUN JOONG'S COMING TO SINGAPORE NEXT WEEEK! I MUST GO!!!! *SQUEALS*

2010-11-24T11:36:00.002+08:00

Courage is when you're afraid,
But you keep moving on anyway.
Courage is when you're in pain,
But you keep on living anyway.
We all have excuses why,
Living in fear something in us dies.

(Orianthi- Courage)

I've never took notice of the lyrics of this song before, until yesterday, when I heard it again.

I'm going mad at home. I'm going mad at home. The scenes keep reviving themselves whenever I see myself in the mirror.

The Doctor in Perth said it's normal for the first week. But I wonder when all this is going to end.

I want to go out.

2010-11-23T00:44:00.002+08:00

I kept re-reading these texts:

Xiaowei: "ARE YOU SERIOUS? Mr are you joking? You sound different in tone too cause it's been long since you called me Xiaowei. Maybe you're really injuried. Which hospital??? Btw. I thought you returning today AND didn't dare to msg you ytd ._. "

Yanci: "Omg!! Are you okay?! Is your family ok? You serious right?"

Samuel: "Woah. Glad that you're okay though, seriously sounds like nothing short of a miracle."

Subin: "Omg omg omg omg don't worry the modern medical breakthroughs can cure anything! I'll prob visit you tmr with Sam, would it okay?"

Another facebook note from Yanci, and an email from Yingying.

Simply, thank you.

2010-11-22T19:22:00.006+08:00

Everything just feels so surreal, from my previous post about me hyperventilating about my trip to Perth and the memory of the car crash.

It all feels like a dream, but when I look at the mirror, my 5 stitches wound (make it 10, the Doctor sewed it inside and out) on my chin looks so solid and raw. The bruise on my left eye, the blue-blacks all over my body, the plaster on my arm, where the Doctor plunged in the long needle attached to the drip.

Surreal, yet.

What an irony. I was anticipating the exhilaration of feeding koalas and kangaroos, but who would imagine, I would be the one attached to a drip, feeding myself off glucose solution?

Can you imagine the pain? With blood dripping off your face as you pull yourself from the wrecked car? Can you imagine having to stitch 10 stitches becos the impact had your flesh jutted out from your skin? And can you fucking imagine the agony of seeing your loved ones pulling themselves out of the wreck, groaning?

No, you can't. Unless you've experienced it yourself. Cos I couldn't before it happened.

What about having to wave off hoards of houseflies from your face while waiting for the ambulance becos they are attracted to the blood on your face? The lonliness, when you walk through the hospital yourself after the Docs deemed you fit to, to look for your parents in a blood stained shirt and swollen face? I would never forget the threads, glistening under the emergency room lights, stitching my wound close. In my entire life, I fear needles, I fear injections. And Doctors plunge needles and needles, each needle the length of a quarter of my forefinger.

It felt like a bumper car ride in the amusement park. Except you're thrown about in the seat and no one laughs at the end. You hear screams of terror, tree branches crashing your car, threatening to flatten you. I thought I was going to die. I admit, I did think before that death was a easy way out through the down period. But when I'm really face to face with Death, I freaked out. I don't want to end my life yet. I'm 17. I'm in the peak of my life. I haven't toured around the world, I haven't thrown the graduation hat (whatever you call that), I haven't had my first job, I haven't met the person whom I'm going to spend the rest of my life with, I haven't did a million things. And I'm going to do it. All these thoughts flashed past my mind. I actually saw snitches of fleeting memories with some people I met in my life. Thinking back, they must be the few significant ones, whether I knew it consciously or not.

But I'm grateful. And thankful. The car was in a wreck, it was beyond repair, and everybody was telling us what a miracle it is to escape Death so narrowly. I really have a million things to thank for, I'm thankful to be wearing a seat belt even though I'm sitting at the seat behind, I'm thankful that my baby bro and sis were not around, I'm thankful that my parents are alright, I'm actually thankful that I'll only have a 2cm scar on my face.

-

And I'm going to bouce right up. We are. It doesn't just knock the wind out of us, it makes us stronger. But really, a big thanks to the people that called the ambulance, those who stayed until the ambulance came, holding our hands. The nurses who squeezed my hands, who slid a blanket on me when I was sleeping.

Thanks for reaching out to these 3 strangers, and treating us with your hearts.

If you've read all the way to here, please, cherish your life. Be thankful and grateful for the little things happening in your every life, cos no matter how small, they are worth it. :-)

&, I've changed my perceptions on friendship too. I used to think having more friends was the most desired. But I realised, it doesn't matter whether I have 10 or 1000 friends. We need true friends, friends that will stand by you.

And with that, thanks Clique. Thanks for being here. For me. Loves.

2010-11-14T17:44:00.005+08:00

HEHEHOHOHAHA I'M SUPER RESTLESS X_X

I can't stand my blog looks so no life and emo and weird. I'm going to do a little revamping or maybe change to tumblr when I come back from Perth!! Then I'll do some serious updates which I haven't done for years hahaha. :-)

Yeahp! Flying to Perth on Tuesday~~
Gonna feed lots of koalas and kangaroos and wombats and swim with dolphins! All the lucky creatures TEEHEE. /m\

Angela: Mommmy what's the exchange rate in Perth??
Mommy: Hm. It's very expensive over there.
Mommy: SO GET READY TO SLIM DOWN WHEN WE GET THERE ON TUESDAY.
Angela: ._.

Yingying's already flew off, next will be Muni, followed by Muni again and Xiaowei the fatso (AHEM PRESENT), then it's Wentian's turn (AHEM PRESENT) and lastly Subin Korean 小妹(AHEM PRESENT)!! Take care everyone have a nice trip come back safely with presents!! :>

I'm so restless now x_x but at the same time I'm very xxxcited about Perth trip on Tuesday with Mom and Dad!! First trip with family that doesn't involve me being an auntie running and shouting about everywhere for my baby sis and bro. LOL.

I'm gonna be the glam queen and take lots of photos hehe. I think I'll probably sweat like mad dog everyday and look like sweating mad dog in the pix cos apparently the weather there's 10times hotter than Singapore. Okay I'm exaggerating, if Singapore's temperature is approx 25 degrees and if Perth is 10times it's 250!!! I'll probably get burnt alive!!!!

Sorry I'm too restless~~~ x_x Sam no want to reply me on fb sobs!!!! So I'm spilling on my rubbish here instead of to him.

I'M SUPER RESTLESS~~~ RESTLESSSSSSS X_X

I'M ~~~~ STILL RESTLESS.

GONNA DISTURB MORE PEOPLE AND SAM ON FB NOW TEEHEE BYE!!
See you in a week's time!!

2010-11-11T01:04:00.002+08:00

I'm going to do my best tomorrow. /m\

I was stupid ever thinking that I can't do it, because simply I can. :-)
And I am, going to do it.

DH003 ON OUR WAY TO EE. :3

It's 01:10 and I'm gonna be up 5 hours later T_T Gosh, bye.

2010-11-10T01:33:00.004+08:00

I enjoy going to other people's blogs and snigger at what they write, like, "I want a pretty dress =D" God, I just can't stand it. Even though pretty dresses are my weakness toooo =D Goodness, I should just snigger at myself first.
I'm sounding incoherent!! I can't stand it!! It's 01:38!! Bye. I can hear all the sniggers directed at me now.

This blog post's so meaningless. -_-

2010-11-04T15:43:00.003+08:00

I was alone on the way home.

Waves of fresh tears whelmed in my eyes. And I had to stop them from rolling down my cheeks by telling myself, "Angela Li, your tears are not worthless. Just, stop it."

It all look so silly now.

2010-11-02T14:47:00.009+08:00

Unexplained feeling . Friendship . Too comfortable . Your existence
These 8 words have been circling my mind recently.

And yesterday, these words etched themselves in my mind.
Synthesized happiness . Attachment . Admiration

Haha nah, I'm not trying to act chim whatsoever, but I don't know how to put down these feelings in paragraphs, so I picked out certain words. :)

Why are you always doing things within my expectations? I wished for the better.

And, uh-oh, I lost it. Unknowingly, unwillingly. What do I hang onto next.

Just a series of rumbling thoughts, guys good luck for OP trials/preps!!

DH003 ON OUR WAY TO EE! :)

Hehe (I'm using this more and more often ohgod) guys I've answered the questions!!
The answers are at the site below hahaha I'm so excited ask me more questions!! -_-

Formspring me: http://formspring.me/Angelalalaaaaaa

2010-10-31T22:37:00.002+08:00

God, I'm a noob at this, the sending button apparently isn't working and I've no idea how to fix it properly, so nah, I've added the link here just go and ask me!!! Hehe.

Formspring me: http://formspring.me/Angelalalaaaaaa

Ask me! :)

2010-10-31T22:20:00.002+08:00

Hehe, I've copied everybody else and added in the Formspring ask me questions!!! I'm so excited!!! Ask ask ask ask ask ask anything hehe or if there's really nothing to ask me (Ohno. :( ) You can ask some lame questions, like what's your favourite colour?

ASK OK ASK OK I'M VERY EXCITED NOW DON'T BE EVIL! :)

Thankyou!!

(ASK ASK ASK ASK ASK ASK)

2010-10-31T21:39:00.006+08:00

It warms my heart, it's the reason for my silly smile. It, you, thankyou. :)

2010-10-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

I'm not going to talk to you ever again, bye.

2010-10-27T00:45:00.004+08:00

I'm having a bad sore throat I think I'm gonna lose my voice soon. I haven't even managed to practise OP with the rest and now I can't even make any noise. Suay to the max.

I'm listening to Kiss Me by J.

AND I'M FEELING EMOZXZXZXZXZX. I TOLD YOU I'M EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE.

When I'm next to you, I wonder whether this is the friendship I'm looking for. But I can't imagine life without you, just like the rest of our Cliquezx. :)

Haha I'm smiling to the screen now just thinking of the past year.
Things just keep getting better, I'm a 2NE1 fangirl now.
(No link)

And Thankyou Mok hehe I felt like I just drank honey water without you even buying it. You're so sweet loves! (Y)

(YAY HON SEC SO NICE TO ME WHOOTS *PROUD*)

And President said omg when I told him I lost my voice!!

(PRESIDENT SO WORRIED WHOOTS *SMIRKS*)

I think he's just worried about our OP trial on Thursday :( ROFL.

Igniate your spark, I believe in you.

2010-10-26T01:04:00.005+08:00

I'm so Kpop crazy now *sways head to and fro* whoots.
I love this song, "Go away." by 2NE1 hehe CL's fringe's sooooooooooo cool just like mine (FLIPS HAIR) Hahahaha joking later I get stoned or something. Fanboys I'm one of you!!! I pledge loyalty to 2NE1 <3

I feel like some siaozhabor now~~~~
But she so got style waulauz bastard boyf.

Go away aye aye aye aye aye~

Hahahaha I'm really abit emotionally unstable, I'm so weirdly high now like endolphines (sp?) -_- rushing around in my body I'm so exxxcited.

Exxxxcited.

I feel so motivated tooooo I'm going to buy a planner and plan my holidays!!! Hehe.
Life's in a happy mess full of PW.

But the feeling of when Muni/or anybody says,"Okay, we got nothing to do already can go home." is nerve wrecking.

It's a feeling I'll never forget in my whole entire life. ^^

K I better be off, I feel so cockish still needa meet early at Sam's house at 8 for PW meeting. Sighzzzzzzzzzzz.

And oh yeah forgot, the feeling when Muni/or anybody saying, "Eh tmr we meet at school at 8am/9am?" is a feeling I'll never forget in my whole life. You just feel like saying a million fucks ROFL.

Bye.

2010-10-25T00:24:00.001+08:00

I'm emotionally unstable nowadays. Please excuse me if I flare up for no reasons.

2010-10-23T18:53:00.003+08:00

You don't care about my efforts d'you? All you want to see is a fucking A. So what if I have fucking As on my report book? So what if I missed Nanyang Girls' by a mark? It's 5 years ago for fucking sake, stop bringing it up.

I've never been perfect in your eyes. I try to do my best, yet I'm always 10 times worse than the other people you know.

Thanks for deflating me. Thanks for looking down on me.

I'm sick of all this. I'm trying my best.

& Fuck you, nobody wants to know how much you hate other people on Facebook. It's not your own little drama soapbox tyvm you're fucking pathetic.

Idk why I'm suddenly full of hatred and anger. -_- K I'd better go and finish my OP slides before my eye gets worse.

2010-10-19T19:09:00.005+08:00

Oh, my, god. (Gives drama queen drawl)

Everybody please snigger at me.

I was spamming MTV last night, and it was JK Craze. And I went crazy with,

SUPER JUNIOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

G.NA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Goodness, I used to laugh at their poster and point at the 'fat guy' with Angeline last year hahahaha. Fangirls, don't stone me for calling him fat!! He's super cute!! ^^ I'm one of you now and I pledge loyalty to Super Junior!!!!!!!

(SCREAMS)

And G.NA too, she's so goddamn prettaye. :D

No Other is on a looooooop and I feel like fainting omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg.

I was supposed to continue slogging my intestines out for WR and OP, but the instant I logged on, I started to check all of them out and save all their photos in the laptop goshhhh to hell with WR and OP Super Junior 万岁万岁万岁万岁!!!!!!

Okokokokok, I'm doing laaaaa! Muni don't give me killer stare~

SUPERJUNIOR I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LURBBBEE EUUUUU SCREAMS SCREAMS SCREAMS.

Lazy to upload other photos, Blogger's getting on my nerves.

SUPER JUNIOR!!!!!!!!

2010-10-16T21:52:00.003+08:00

5C11 dinner last night was (Y) For that two hours, I felt like all those little things that have been nudging me for the past few days were gone. Hahaha those silly people really brought smiles on my face. :)

Blogging has became such a chore nowadays, but there's always an urge to rant what has been going on.

Is it my inability or your perception? I've been thinking about it. Your perception. My inability. My inability. I'm actually numb to it. My inability. I don't know really. Was it unfair of you? Or was it my fault? Should I be upset, that you, didn't keep your promise? Should I be upset that you, as my friend, is labelling me? Did you ever gave me the chance? I don't know. D'you know how upset I was at first? Why bother put in all your emotions and expectations? Isn't it better to just stick to your own job and just detach yourself from it? Am I wrong? I'm sorry.

2010-10-14T01:15:00.002+08:00

The house's so empty now.

And from tmr onwards, I'm bringing my own set of keys. I've not brought keys out for years now, 5 to be exact. Because there were always people welcoming me home.

I saw the glistening of tears, puffy red eyes, with I-miss-you deeply etched in her brows. Mine too, subconsciously when I looked at the mirror.

I told myself it's silly to cry, over what?

An empty house, it used to be so crampy, but now it's just too big.

3 months. 12 more months.

I'm ranting at 1:22, just too much unresolved feelings nowadays. I'm fine.

2010-10-12T15:39:00.005+08:00

Sometimes, I feel like killing myself.
(I won't, don't worry I've a really low threshold for pain, and I won't won't ever think of killing myself. I think it's ridiculous, taking my life when I'm still young.)

I'm so frustrated with everything in my life now. Although there is nothing in my life displaced, sick, disorientated. But there's this bitter, pitless feeling about everything happening recently. I laugh, but that scent of happiness never lasts. I smile, but that was never the feeling deep down. Maybe it's just period, oh sweet period, you coming soon?

I feel like saying sorry a hundred times to someone. Who I don't know. Why I don't know. Just felt like saying a hundred sorries. Sorry sorry sorry.

I'm sick of my life now. And I'm going to change it.

And I won't be patronising anymore, no no. I'm sick of it. Why should I be thinking of our friendship all the time when you barely talk? You have your own friends, and I have mine. If you can just discard it, why can't I?

But DH003, press on!! :-)

2010-10-06T20:42:00.003+08:00

I'm happy that you liked it.
Really, really. :)

D'you know that you make me really really happy? One sentence, and that's all it takes.

On the minusss side, I'll be getting back GP, Elit and Maths tmwr.
Please offer tissues tyvm.

2010-10-02T16:10:00.002+08:00

Promos is over!

And next week please offer me some tissues if you see me with red puffy eyes. LOL. Hahaha choy choy choy!!

I was helping out in my Mommy's tuition centre alone hehe it was super cooool with little kids calling me laoshi laoshi hahaha. Anyway Mommy's opening her second tuition centre it's a chain it's a chain!! Family business hahaha super proud of her and our family will become a tycoon family omg!! (Hahaha I'm just letting my imagination run wild, but it's super cool no?)

There was a parent that came in too and asked me about the tuition and stuff, and I professional asked her to call my mom. LOL.

Went to Mind's Cafe yesterday with 4F girls heh. Only 4, but enjoyed myself nevertheless. :)

I'm looking forward to 4F outing on Monday, outing with Angeline tmr, outing with Angeline, Sihui on Tuesday, Cliquezx outing on Wednesday and SEESA dinner on Sunday! :-)

I don't feel like blogging already I can't express myself properly LOL I'm becoming senile bye.

2010-09-29T11:17:00.002+08:00

Last Paper to go! (It's half a paper lorrrr.)

I found this in my draft on Monday night:

Maths really disappointed me. I mean I disappointed myself. I'm sorry, for disappointing you, you were right. And I was the self-obsesssed, unappreciative little brat.

// I walked 3 bus-stops to home yesterday. The clouds were crimson, the wind was blowing my hair. The feeling was amazing. :-)

2010-09-25T11:26:00.002+08:00

2 Papers downnnn, 3 more to go!! :*

I'm so proud of my Econs seriously it was at least 20 times better than CT, I left mostly everything blank/write 2 lines for CT, but this time I wrote pages!! Woots I'm going to be so pro in Econs now. (LOL later I fail I'm going to delete this blog so embarrassing) But sheeeze, I'll pass. :-)

Elit Paper 1 was abit :/ Richard III was okay, but the poems suck at usual bleahhhhh cross my fingers!

Okok, Maths, CSC, Elit Paper 2 next Monday.
I'm going to kill all my brain cells on Monday, 3 hours of critical-thinking Maths in the morning, and 3 hours of creative thinking (making up facts about China) in the afternoon!! So exciting!! -_- 6 hours!!!

K I better go back to Maths nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. Byebye.

I don't know how to put this feeling down. Fuck.

2010-09-18T19:50:00.004+08:00

Hi friend, won't you come back to me? Won't you stand by me? Won't you make me laugh because it's you? Won't you listen to my words that I'd never told you?

Would you? Cos I realised with you, I was the happiest girl on Earth.

Hahaha I was just having one of those weird sentimental thoughts especially after talking to Yingying today.

I guess I'm happy now. Cos I bet you didn't know, I was smiling all along while making the jellies. Sounds really silly, but I can't help it. :-)

2010-09-17T21:37:00.004+08:00

CLIQUEZXZXZXZXZX!! (♥)

Hiii guys GP's over over!!

It's like omg I came out smiling (secretely to myself) after Paper 1 and I felt like crying after Paper 2 wtffffff. Paper 2's damn screwed, somehow my brain's not working after hyperventilating after Paper 1 I spent like 30mins reading the bloody passage, trying to find out what it is talking about, so in the end, I didn't have time to finish and my summary exceeded by 20+ words and I only wrote my intro for AQ. Damn sigh ttm. :(

But ohwells, I'm crossing my fingers for the best. Hehe, cross your fingers!!!

Kopped this from Eatingburgersunderwater, damn funny ttm. (Y)

Yingying: Ey Angela your hair quite nice today! (Pause) Usually it looks like chicken feathers.
Angela: WTF?! !#%!#%!#$!#
Yingying: YOU THEN 1#%!#%!#%$!#%!#%
Angela: 去死%(*&^&%$#*&^
Yingying: FUCK YOU !@$#%^!#%!#
Muni: OI KNS CAN YALL STOP SWEARING!!!
Xiaowei: Muni you !#%!#^%!#%
Yanci: YALL $#^!#$^!4
Us: !#^!$%!#%!#^@$&#
Sam: Yall are gonna end up killing each other.

Hahaha damn funny, and today:

Angela, Yanci, and Yingying: Sam quite cute leh!!!
Miss Huda: Huh I think Sam is very uncle! I'll be looking at you all differently now. (Gives weird look)
Us: ROFLOLMAOZ HAHAHAHAHA LAUGH OUT LOUD.

The more I want to let go, the more I want to hold on tight, what a paradox.

2010-09-12T12:12:00.008+08:00

I'm currently reading CSC, sucks siah. I don't understand a thing hahaha. I read Econs in the morning and I'm reading China Econs now so it's kinda of translation of Invisible Hand Theory and stuff, quite coooool luh, except when I've to flip a dictionary every word. -_-

Anw, I'm currently watching this show at a super slow speed! I saw it on Channel 855 the other day and it's quite sweet worh. :D

The Accidental Couple:

I kupped the bottom 2 pix from youcapturedme.blogspot.com. The pix are super nice!! :-)

Kim Ah Joong is sooooo pretty just watching her cry makes my heart break LOL. And Hwang Jung Min is super cute sometimes hehe. And the bottom pix is Kim Ah Joong's brother in the show, super (Y) Hahaha go watch go watch! It's screening now at Channel 856, every Sunday 6.45 luh. Haha.

K I need go back CSC now in order to watch the show tonight guilt-free heehee bye!

P.S. Thankyou friends for all your texts, you'll never know how much they mean to me. Thankyou. And I realised some people are not meant to be, and I should just let them go. :-)

2010-09-09T19:48:00.003+08:00

Today's Day 6 of hardcore mugging.

Hi guys, I'm barely alive.

This has been my daily routine for these 6 days:
Wake up, study, eat lunch, study, eat dinner, study, sleep.

Sigh, I know, I'm a freaking nerd now. B-)
I'm gonna go school in thick specs, and babble about the evils of globalisation during lessons and read "Broader Perspectives" when I'm having free periods. It's not that it's bad okay don't get me wrong, it's just like the life I want.

Fuck.

I'm sorry I'm just in an aweful mood nowadays, I've been gluing my ass in my studying chair everyday but everything's just bloody unproductive. It's terrible, and I fall asleep at 2am in the morning with thoughts of myself crying after Promos and retaining. 6 days of that.

And horrible dreams that leave my pillows wet the following morning. It's all about my friends saying goodbye to me, telling me to take care. And I'm trapped in this empty dark space, all alone. So, hi, I'm turning pyscho.

I know maybe I've stressed myself out too much, and it's only Promos, I can't imagine myself next year sitting for 'A' Levels, I'll probably lose all my hair and stuff. Gosh.

I've been working hard okay. I've been. :o(

On the plus side, my family has been extremely supportive. Like this random convo which totally lit up my night:

2.30am in the morning (Me and bro sleep in the same room)
(Me getting ready to sleep)
Bro: (Whines) I can't fall asleepppppppppppppp.
Angela: Shut up and sleep I'm tired.

Half an hour later...
(Noises of someone gasping for breathe and wheezing.)
Angela: (Alarmed) OMG ARE YOU OKAY??? WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU??? ARE YOU HAVING AN ATHESMA ATTACK???? CAN YOU BREATHE??????
Bro: Er, I'm playing, "Hold My Breath" game.
Angela: WHAT THE HELL. I WAS ALSLEEP JUST NOW LOR. WHAT HOLD YOUR BREATHE GAME HOW OLD ARE YOU ALREADY GRRR. (Throws pillow at him)
Bro: Waulau I know you care la!! So fierce for what.
Angela: Shut your mouth, I would be happier if you just drop dead now.

After a few more mins...
Bro: Eh, must take care okay, I know you are having exams, but I don't want you to drop dead or something.

I don't know, but I started tearing when I heard that. Gosh, must be the hormones or something. :(

So hi to whoever reading this, drop me a text telling me to keep going okay, tell me that there are people out there who care, won't you? I'll really really appreciate it.

Thankyou.

2010-09-04T21:17:00.003+08:00

&, I feel feverish again.

No, fever leave me alone, I can't afford to be sick again, or I'm really going to regret it.

Please. :(

Why is everything going downhill?

2010-09-04T19:33:00.002+08:00

Day 1 of full core mugging: FAIL.

Fuck, I'm in a very bad mood now. Seriously, Ok. It's not fail, rephrase, rephrase.

Day 1 of full core mugging: DAMN FAIL.

I had intended to do 2 Chapters of Maths and Econs today and I'm 3/4 through my first Maths chapter now.

And I sat in my room the whole day. That's the *&^&$# thing of it, I sit the whole day I still damn fail wtf!! Damn sad!!

And now I'm just bloody tired. :(

Wtf wtf wtf Angela. :(

Cross your fingers for me ok, otherwise say bye to me after Promos. :'(

2010-09-02T17:09:00.004+08:00

I had another fever ytd, 39.5 my brain nearly got burnt off. -_- But I'm still sane now so don't worry my brain's still intact. :-) But there's something wrong with my neck now. :( It's like weird, there's something growing (Shudddup I know it's gross) and it's really painful to move it. So I guess, I'm kinda half-paralysed on my neck. LOLOLOL. (Choy)

Anyway, it means I've been sick for a week already!! (On and off) My schoolwork's dying +(

Tuesday night's been incredibly fun, ask me, well, just 6 months ago, I'll never imagine myself laughing like crazy with this bunch of people, but now they really lighten my day. (So sorry Jasmine couldn't make it for your birthday celebration, I had plans with my class people first so sorry happy birthday! For the zillion time LOL.)

I wonder whether it is not meant to be.

2010-08-28T21:57:00.004+08:00

Last Friday during CSC,

Angela: Ah, Yanci ah, I want to... (cut off)
Yanci: Er, shhhh.
Angela: Omg!! See see!! I knew it!! Cut me offf!!! (Becomes very agaited.)
Yanci: SHHH.
Angela: -Shuts up and make angry face.

A few minutes later...
Angela: EH WHAT IF I WANTED TO SAY I WANTED TO DIE!!! THEN I WOULD HAVE JUMPED OFF LIKE JUST NOW. AND YOU WOULD BE SHHHH-ING ME JUST LIKE WHEN I WAS SICK THE OTHER TIME!!! (Refer to post below)
Yanci: Shhhhhhhhhhh. (continues highlighting her notes)
Angela: Eh!! I'm going to jump down now.
Yanci: -Looks at her notes and continue highlighting.
Angela: -______________-
Angela: I'M SO GONNA BLOG ABOUT THIS. >:(

Omg, I swear, if I jumped down right then, Yanci will still be highlighting her notes, obviously, highlighting her notes is more important than me LOL.

Hahahaha.

Yingying: I'm going to make non-bake cheesecake for all of you!!
Angela: Need oven not.

Hahahaha. I'm still laughing. My brain's probably not working that time. Must be. :-)

I'm addicted to the song, "Just A Dream." by Nelly and "Release Me" by Agnes.
Go and listennnnnnnnnn!! Hahaha.

What should I write inside?

I was thinking about her, thinking about me.
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.

2010-08-26T20:13:00.002+08:00

I've been having a high fever since Tuesday after Econs, so I missed school on Wed and today. It was reallly bad, having on and off fever and my throat hurts like f. I kept crying at tiny stuffs throughout it was terrible. :(

On Tuesday, during GP, (waaaaay before Econs lecture)
Angela: Munnnnnni, I feel unw... (want to say I'm feeling unwell but cut off)
Muni: Wait. Shhhhh. (Speaks to Ms Huda) Ms Hudaaa!! So you meant criminals blahblah.
Angela: :(

During Econs lecture,
Angela: Xiaoweiiii ahh I'm feeling very coldddd, see my hand so cold. (touches Xiaowei)
Xiaowei: Er, (still looking at the screen) er, you, you go touch Yanci (Keeps on highlighting her notes.)
Angela: :(

On Wed night 10pm,
Xiaowei: (texts) Oneones, remember to bring your red clothes and assemble at parade school @ 8.30 tmr.
Angela: I'm not going to school tmr.
Xiaowei: OH YOU REALLY SICK AH? GET WELL SOON.
Angela: -______________- After so long then realise.

On Thursday afternoon,
Yingying: Yoz fagz, how are you?
Angela: -_________________-

Look @ these heartless bunch hahahaha need to get some new friends soon LOL.

2010-08-18T17:01:00.003+08:00

I've no idea how to correct my 2nd EoM Draft and it's 3 days late already. :-(
(Someone help me!!)

I just opened my Dhsmail, and it was the only mail I opened.

I know, I know, it's a mass-sent email, it's a mass-sent email, but I actually felt something warm in my heart spreading. And my vision blurred.

My vision blurred, cos it's you.

It's a mail titled, "Little encouragement"

2010-08-17T13:34:00.005+08:00

I just signed up for the PSC talk!!!!
Hahaha and I feel quite proud of myself for writing down my name heehee. :-)

I know all of you evil people reading this now will be like omg she's applying for PSC????? She can't even get an A. (Or Xiaowei/Yanci, are you laughing like shit now.) Grrrrr @ all of you but at least I dare to think about it okkkk better than some people who never even dared to think they could do it. Not like I'm saying I can, but ok lah, I'm quite interested in the other Ministry scholarships eg. idk. LOL. (I actually didn't dare to think of the PSC one hahahahaha)

Ok why am I explaining so much about it. This is getting kind of lame .___________.

Anw I just got a fresh wave of inspiration to study hard!!!!!!!!!!! (But I've just wasted this triple period by fbing/blog-hopping) OKAYY WHATEVER. -Makes W sign HAHAHA (YANCI)

Starting from now!!! Angela Li Zi Xin with her Rilakuma pencilbox (OMG IT'S DAMN CUTE CAN COME AND FIND ME TO OOGLE OVER IT 8-) ) will like study damn hard and like gets lots of As by promos!!

Omg I'm getting so hyperventilated by the imaginary As, I think I'll just pack up now and be like 10mins early for Econs lecture and chop a front seat. :D :D :D

(Actually I think I'm just happy today) :-)

Hey guys, thanks for trusting me. Really. Thanks for everything.

Hm, the bell for Econs lecture just rang hahahahahhaha so much for getting inspired bye guys!!

2010-08-10T12:45:00.003+08:00

My phone dieddddddddddd, bloody charger couldn't work, and even if I charge the whole day it only has 1/4 batt, plus it keep switching off on it's ownnnn.

Mommy said I still has a few more months to getting a new phone, and all my spare phones are in the toybox for my siblings. Wtf.

Super super random update, 4 more weeks to promos I somehow feel so unprepared and depressed.

(Grades, won't you recover from your terminal disease pretty please?? :( )

2010-08-06T17:18:00.002+08:00

& Xiaowei! I didn't forget you okkkk. :D I'm so proud of you for whatever you've done. Be strong and of course, I still believe you can passsssssss it! :-)

P.S. I know alot of photos are recycled but I'm too lazy to edit the new photos hahaha.

P.P.S. Everything is jumbled everywhere for my previous post hahaha so sorry but so frustrating to adjust everything hahaha.

2010-08-06T16:11:00.022+08:00

Some people I just simply cannot resist,

There's my brother, who I feel like punching off his face half of the time, but I still couldn't resist doing his homework when he begs me to. >:(

There's best friend D, who insults me half of her time, but I still can't help but smile and call her my BF when I see her. ^^

There's 4F09, which I would never forget in my life. :-&

My team, which I can never make it for anything without them. :-)

S+...

...EESA , where are the memories are deeply tucked into. C-:

And there's 5C11, who make me smile to no ends. :-)

My fellow Angel comrade of course,
Yanci, Muni who fights with me all the time, but still. :-)My retarded Moktard, B-)

My noisy brothers and sisters, they never fail to melt my heart :-*
Evil Hua, who is forever making fun of me, but never fails to make me hysterical over silly things. :-D

And Smartie-pants Jo! :-)

The end, sudden sentimental-ness. Byebye! :-D

2010-07-24T20:55:00.003+08:00

It was at the back of my head.

But it all came back. The bitterness. On Friday.

U U U S E.

It has been 2 weeeeeks since I touched the comp, 8 more weeks to promos! I feel so so so so so mugger but I really need to study my ass off. 8 weeks later, I want to be the one smiling, not the one tearing. :-)

And I'm sorry I didn't go in the end, I hope you'll understand. I'm sorry.

Deborah, HK trip after promos ok! Pinky promise!

I'm sorry I never meant to lie, I never meant to hurt anybody. I swear I'll do you proud. :o(

And, just a note to myself, happy second anniversary to myselffff haha. I doubt you'll be seeing this but jiayouu ok I know you can do it.

2010-07-13T11:43:00.002+08:00

I thought I had it all under control.

I thought, no matter what grades I get, I'll face it with a smile, cos I know I haven't tried my best. And I have only myself to blame.

But when that glimmer of hope went dim.

Oh wells, I tried to be strong.

But I'm still going strong and nothing's going to hold me back.

I don't need you. I don't give a damn.

I know U U E are seriously hideous, but give me a chance and don't give up on me.

2010-07-02T18:12:00.002+08:00

OOOOOOOH KIM JAE WON.

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE.

It must be the feminie hormones, I cried when he kissed the girl. >:o)

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE -SWOOOOONS.

2010-06-30T15:17:00.004+08:00

3 and a half papers down.
Down down down in the first 3 days!

I've only got Elit Paper 2 to go but It's gonna draaaaaaaag until next Tuesday, sucks. :{

Anw, papers have been going really badly. It's the first time I step in an examination hall with 3/4 papers prepared the night before (3/4 hours) only.

So yup I predicted a few Fs already. :(

Ohwell, I'm going to study doubly hard for promos ok! I've promised myself already I'll surprise everyone hahaha (If you go thru my archieve, that's what I say everytime after exams.) But it's true this time! >>

K, I shall go watch my kdrama now, Kindergarten Love, it's super cute!

Ciao all the best people!

2010-06-25T14:11:00.009+08:00

I'm back!

Heh, I've always wondered how does jetlagged feel hahaha anw there's only 1 hour difference between Thai and Sing so I guess there's no difference! What am I talking about. -_-

Overall trip's nubbad. :) There weren't any chaos or anything so it was quite safe heh. And things were really cheap! Like a Pizza Hut that football pitch pizza? It's 200+ Baht, and divide by around 25 and it's around 8 Dollars plus! Haha so exciting divide by 25! Not much photos though, cos first 2 days I was down with a little sore eye, I had to keep it down by drowning my eyes in medical oil. Lol. -_-

But I found Pattaya too sexual for me haha. :( Idk there are too many pubs all around and there are alot alot alot alot alot of skimpy women everywhere from 4-5pm onwards. Haha and I hate the way how some men look/stare at tourists, like they can see right through me. Super uncomfortable. Then they'll come up and make small talks which I totally had goosebumps hahaha. Hate it hate it.

But Bangkok's much much much much better. :) The locals are much more classy and stuff. Like we went Siam Peragon and the really really Bangkok girls are so prettaye, and their fashion sense are not bad haha much much better than skimpy thrashy outfits. And the richer younger Thai guys are so cute! (My mom keep pointing them out LOL.)

Anw there were this hotel we stayed in Bangkok, not big just a small little backpacker kind of hotel. But look super classy! My room was pink, and it's super clean and nice. Pink!! Pink!! Couldn't stop camwhoring with the mirror muahaha, so yup there will be alot of zilian photos heehee. :D

Ok, ciao, I feel like watching this Korean show, Kindergarten Love which I watched abit from the KBS World Channel in Pattaya and Bangkok. Omg the kindergarten unifoms are super cute!

PINK PINK PINK!

Ohman, I haven't finish one subject of revision yet, die.

Sometimes, it's so hard to say goodbye.

2010-06-17T17:40:00.002+08:00

I've just finished doing my share for the GPP, feeling super proud now hahaha.

Ok, I've got 2 days left to complete my revision. (Considering I still haven't touched CSC and Elit shrieks.)

I think I might have to pack my books to Bangkok and Pattaya on Sunday sigh. :{

Anw my mom told me the hotel we're living next to in Pattaya is apparently the world's largest sex street! (!) HAHA.

Ok, ciao work here I come.

2010-06-15T15:24:00.003+08:00

I'm on my way to a new beginning heh, so decided to revamp HSC again! Leave comments ok! :D
It's a new beginning bcos I've resolved to start afresh, regardless of studies or on my perspective over different things hahaha.

Because I finally realised how stupid I was, wallowing in self-pity, pulling a long face over someone/something so simple. I blamed this, that, him, her, but suddenly after yesterday's 4F outing, I suddenly realised it's just my atitude.

Towards everything, including my studies.

Yesterday, I missed my last bus home from Tampines Interchange, Dillon sent me home. And it really made me think of alot of other things when I was walking home alone. I realised that last year, my whole mind was just focused solely on Person X, it's either X this, X that, emo X this, emo X that, I failed to appreciate what my friends around are doing for me.

And when I alighted at Tampines ytd, JunJie suddenly said,"Angela must smile more!" It's just a simple sentence and I don't know why he said that. But I suddenly realise it's been a long time since I've really been very happy. I've wasted all my time sulking, emoing, crying.

I was so selfish. I was so blind.

Yup I'm not emoing ok, just saying what's going on in my mind.

And from this hour on, I'm going to be a happy girl.

I'm finally free, and to Person X (although I don't think you'll see this), I suddenly realised how ridiculous I was, and you did the right thing from the start. Nevertheless, I must thank you for being so tolerant and saying sorry when I was being unreasonable.

It's the past now, jiayou Homa captain, I'll be behind you always! :D

2010-06-10T22:12:00.001+08:00

Refreshed HSC heh. I like the blogskin! It's so cute, but I don't like click profile, click link kind of skin hahaha.

I'll do up the links another day.

Sigh, sigh, sigh, you.

2010-06-07T16:06:00.004+08:00

Of course, I've not been up to any interesting things lately. I'm just at home lying on the bed, spamming Channel 855. And if the show's finished, I switch to Channel 856 for a repeat.

And the day's gone.
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Last week was my final exam for my piano. 9 years have gone by. The journal's finished, and the truth is, I'm really proud of myself, I continued for 9 years and I've put in my best for the final lap. Although I'm a tiny weeny disappointed with my final performance, I'm still hoping for a happy ending though. :)

(That was last week.)

This is the beginning of a new week, and I woke up feeling like a slug. Not the disgusting sluggy way, it's the soft soft sluggish way k whatever.

I get headaches whenever I sleep too much (>6hours), watch too much telly. Sigh.

I feel like I've lost something. Everything just seem so systematic.

I need someone/something to happen and give me a push.

& It's been 2 years. Fast isn't? Angela Li just stop it. You're hurting yourself.

2010-05-26T18:18:00.002+08:00

Oh dear, my number five, where are youu.

Well, I didn't complete my paper, as usual.

Been having alot of minor conflicts and whirls of emotions these few days, and I'm very tired.

Bye, and I'm missing you terribly.

2010-04-29T12:00:00.002+08:00

We won TJC (16-11) and ACJC (53-23 I can't really remember hahaha)

Happy happy hope we win VJ this Friday (which is tomorrow) and we'll be in top 4! Yay happy happy happy everyone jiayouu. :D

Random update with Xiaowei sleeping next to me. Ok, I shall start mugging from next week next week I promiseeeeeeeeeeeee. T-T

Anw I'm the girl with white specs now! Hahaha collected my new specs yesterday and if you look closer at my eyes when I'm wearing specs you'll notice that I have one big one small eye! Hahahahahaha.

Ok, so that's all PW is next bye peeps.

2010-04-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

A DIV BASKETBALL TOURNAMENT.

DHS GOOOOOOOOO. ^^

2010-04-20T23:55:00.002+08:00

I've suddenly had the urge to blog, so here I am.

I don't know how long I've not updated this space already, so I've no idea where do I begin, but I want to blog goodness I'm going nutszx.

K anw, all these weeks I've been hysterically wasting time. :(
Seemingly no matter how much work I do, I still have alot of things waiting for me. (Oh dear, I sound like a complete nerd now.) I still can't keep my eyes open during GP, open my ears during Econs lecture, stop thinking of trying to pon which lessons.

Ohman maybe I'm too tired but I think I'm typing incoherently. I keep thinking all my sentence structures are wrong and stuffs. Too much Elit. Omg I better stop talking about Elit.

I've got 'A' Div competition on Friday and I still think I suck horribly. I had training yesterday, and throughout the whole training, I keep thinking to myself, "Why did I join Basketball in the first place? Don't you know your own limits? Why do you have to risk to pull down the whole team because of you? I can't contribute anything."
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I don't know laa.

I'm very tired now bye.

2010-04-17T11:40:00.001+08:00

Busy much.

I'm sorry HCS for neglecting you, lots of things have been going on.

Bye.

&, I'm finally moving on.

2010-03-31T17:56:00.006+08:00

I'm thinking, thinking and thinking.

One moment, she's the person that you go crazy with, and the next, they're not in your life anymore.

I mean that's what happens every two years right, but still it's kind of sad isn't? :(

We barely say hello or smile when we pass each other along the corridors. Having a simple conversation totally lights up my day. I wonder is it how it's going to end.

ENFJ's totally screwing me up. What's with all these thoughts.

Ok I'm having this bad feeling right now after reading my horoscope cos apparently I'll have lots of bad luck if I go out without umbrella and get wet. Which I did. So fingers crossed I can't believe I'm so overly superstitious.

K, that's all people. I'm going to do my work now.

And from now on, I shall spend my time wisely. :)

2010-03-16T22:07:00.002+08:00

Everything's loading except for FB. Gah, I'm so bored now I've visited every blog I know twice and read the same thing for zillions of times.

I just checked on my Nuffnang, my hits are alarming. Alarmingly low, that's it. And I'm losing my interest to blog. Immmmma becoming boring oh gosh.

Yawn, I finished reading Understanding About Markets II and understood everything (was super smug about it.)

I'd never told you is a nice song it's making me tear. :'(

K, noone's asking me out. (whines)

2010-03-15T16:22:00.003+08:00

(Angela) Loves. (Angeline)

WE WANT ADAM WE WANT ADAM MORE PICCTURES ON FB, YUP WE WENT TO SEE HIM AT BJ ON SATURDAY AFTER WAITING FOR 4+HOURS.

I need the holidays to catch up on my work (HEY TOMATO YOU WANT TO KETCHUP? GEDDIT IT? KETCHUP! HAHAHAHA) and spend some quality time and take lots of pictures gosh becoming more and more camwhorezxzxzxz.

Anw, blogging has became a chore. I only feel like blogging when I suddenly have an upsurge of feelings. :D

You make me smile like the sun, sing like a bird, dizzy in the head, buzz like a bee.

(Yup, only you.)

Ok, except the buzzing thing, it'll be weird if I suddenly buzz ._.

2010-03-09T19:10:00.003+08:00

Sleeping with a broken heart.

I'm getting very irritated of my brain lately, it's just not working.

My tutorial's a mess, and I don't understand a thing what the teachers are talking about. My brain goes into the shutting down mood the moment the teacher starts talking.

I can't cope in 5C11. I'm not getting hardworking/studious under the influence in this smart class. I'm just getting very demoralised and angry with myself. :(

But whatever, I'm going to try harder. :)
I'm going to aim for a place under the Top Students for A Levels 2011 okay!

Basxketball is sucking all my energy awayyyyyy, I'm becoming an old woman, here pain, there pain everywhere pain ugh.

K, blogging's wasting my timeeeee.
Byebye.

2010-03-04T16:37:00.002+08:00

2010-03-03T20:33:00.002+08:00

I've been online since 4pm, thinking of getting my CSC ppt done. But nah, I've done completedly nothing, except kaypo here and there.

9/20 for my H2 Maths. I bet I was one of the lowest in class.

Today's just a very wrong day, I shouldn't have even came to school.

2010-03-02T19:29:00.004+08:00

I just have to blog this.

I JUST HAVE TO.

Even though I just got home, haven't bathed, hungry like *^&%, smelly and sticky.

I just have to do this.

I was on 168 with Lishan on the way home,

Oh god this is so traumatising.

I can still feel my goosebumps now.

Okay, here goes,

THERE'S THIS GIGANTIC

HORNET

FLYING AROUND!

It's like 5cm.

It's really 5 cm exaggerating!

Ohman.

It was flying around and around and around and around

and people were running around,

including me.

I was completedly hyperventilating and going, "OHMYGOD OHMYGOD."

Lishan was super calm hahahahahahahahaha.

To add it on,

there's this random uncle that keep scaring us by telling us how snakes and scorpions (?) could be lurking on buses. GOD. SCORPIONS SCORPIONS???????

And he added,"The bee has a yellow tail (or whatever I can't remember) and if I don't want to get stung I better get down the bus.

So I alighted at Tampines Safari with Lishan.

I called Angeline immediately and she snorted at me! How supportive. I made her say it was a very narrow shave that I nearly died hahahahahahahahahahahha.

Next I called Yanci and she shared with me her flying cockroach story and when I tried to tell her somemore of the story, she went, "Shh shh I need do work now bye."

-_-

that's all end of post.

(Angeline you're right I rushed home immediately and blogged about it! :D)

HAHAHA.

Elit for 1.5hours today and Thursday. :[

I swear, I didn't even have the energy to look like at my notes and see what she's talking about.

21/25 Econs Content Test 1

21/50 GP Test

11/25 Elit Thought-Fox Poem Analysis.

Ms Huda said I'm rambling in my GP essay and Ms Yan said I'm not being critically and analytically enough, but she said I made a sincere effort in trying to point out evidence for my Poem Analysis although too personal, with me talking about how the fox (a personification of the persona's inspiration when he's writing a poem) looks like a pet dog.

Mygod I sound so chim!

Althought idk whether personification is used correctly.

K, I'll continue to try my best.

JIAYOU!

I can't let it go.

I deserve all this for being indecisive right at the beginning.

Slap me awake.

2010-02-24T17:13:00.008+08:00

Angela: Ohmygod! I'm so excited!
Mom: What. For what.
Angela: It's my birthday today ._.
Mom: OH. (Goes back to her laptop)

Angela: (?!)

(That was yesterday.)

I'm now officially 17. (5 more years and I'm going to find someone marry yay! HAHA.) Thanks everyone for your birthday wishes, cards, hugs, presents really appreciated it alot. Received quite alot of unexpected birthday wishes on Facebook but I'm not complaining. :D

Jiamin Leslie Kiatshing Dilys Dillon Yanci Huangching Yanling Vincent Yokeming Junjie Wanying Leon Pearlyn Jade Sihui Chaoyuan Jocelyn Bryan Natalia Zhengfeng Jane Wenning Fanghua Quile Linghong Junkai Joseph Kimberlyn Nick Xiaowei Terence Jasmine Angeline Clarissa Longhei Samuel Lichang Nigel Shuqi Mr Leong Boon Xuan Joanne Weiqi Xingfang Shimei Jill Sara Tongwei Denise Zhenghui Elizabeth Sherlyn Yingying Jiahui Eunice Justin Muni Theresa Jillian Huiqi Zhengkai Sumei Sharon Ruixin Deborah Wentian Rachel Nienan Teresa Yeuk Ho Jennifer Huien Serena Wenzhong Daniel Mr Loh Subin Nicole TYVM. ^^

It's a marvellous birthday but I do have one unfulfilled wish. Will you fulfill it?

Anw I'm not in a brilliant mood today. Well I hope you don't choke on it. I've done what I should.

Regret.

5C11 lots of love.